On Being an Orphan

I woke up this morning with another lesson from the Lord in my heart.  You know -- I'm just like Sasha -- with HIM.  Too often, I'm the orphan that doesn't feel very attached to Him -- I don't spend the time with Him that I should, I'm the one that doesn't trust that He will love me completely with all my issues -- and I'm "in it" for the goods, too, sometimes.  LOL!  I know one thing -- I want to go home -- but I don't want to go home the same.  I want to learn everything I can on this journey -- and I'm learning so much about myself and this calling that He has for us.  We were supposed to see Sasha again today, but Halya called and said -- don't go today because you'll need to go tomorrow and Friday -- so this will be the 2nd day in a row without seeing her at all.  I'm happy to report that I miss seeing her!  It's like I said before -- I just want to get her and go.  That orphanage is just a place of bondage -- for all of us.  Sasha is stuck there -- and our relationship with her is stuck at a certain point until we can get her out of there.  I still believe that God has set this lonely little girl in our family -- and when I think about it -- SHE is the truly brave one.  She doesn't know us, she can't even speak to us, and she really knows no other life than that orphanage -- but she is brave enough to step boldly into our arms and trust us.  THAT is the heart of God -- open arms for us.  We are just a very poor example of the very deepest part of his heart -- setting the lonely into HIS family.

On a lighter note -- here's our girl -- the typical kid addicted to the Kindle!